Off my game

Friday an old fuck bud of mine who used to hold some WILD sex parties "back in the day" came over for a catch-up fuck (I'll call him "Switch" since he's truly versatile). I remember that as many guys as would come over to his house, like a dog I'd always want to sample every hole that I found attractive...but when it came time to bust my nut I'd always look around for Switch to finish inside him cuz his hole was just that sweet. I told him about my friend Bull's birthday party coming up and how much I'd been looking forward to it. Well...

When Saturday came around I thought I'd hit the gym in the late afternoon to get nice and tight since it was a pool/hot tub party and it didn't start until the eve. I don't know if it was from lack of sleep, bad food or just exhaustion from the workout, but I definitely wasn't feeling like I was on my A-game. Nevertheless, I headed to Bull's house and arrived an hour after the start time-- just in time to help him and his friends set up (yes, they were running late). When the party finally started growing, a few others from the last party arrived, as well as Sven, who had just finished fucking some young kid apparently along the way there. One of the regular tweakers ("Tweaker E") wasted no time in insinuating himself into every conversation with sexual inuendos to not-so-subtly let everyone know how horny he was. I told Sven in the hot-tub "Tweaker E's an easy lay. I have my eye on someone else, but if that doesn't work out I'll definitely fuck him." Sven agreed, and mentioned how he wanted to fuck Bull's boyfriend (preferably when Bull had passed out) but would also settle for Tweaker E. No sooner had we finished our brief when Tweaker E came to join us in the hot tub for more high-brow conversation (i.e. "I'm so horny. how about you guys?"). Sven casually got out of the tub, and Tweaker E eyed him to follow. 5 minutes later all 3 of us were in the bathroom with me and Sven taking turns on Tweaker E's ass. While this might SOUND hot, it wasn't. It was so mediocre. Tweaker E just was a bad fuck; sloppy, loose and out of synch. Still, I wanted to get off, so I did a trick I do sometimes which involves fucking a guy and jacking myself at the same time which finally produced a VERY unsatisfying orgasm. I thought, "well, that's enough then. On to fresher game." and went back to the hot tub.

OK, here's the horror part of the story; we were all nekked in the hot-tub (there were off and on about 8 guys; 7 of them VERY hot) plus one beaudacious black chick who looks and acts like a nicer version of "Tammy" from the real world LA. And one by one the guys like Sven, two black guys and one other nice Italian dude I was interested in got out to just sit on the side of the tub and essentially show off their schlongs. And just when I wanted to join in, it hit me; my dick was as small as a Chinaman's. WHAT THE FUCK! Add to this a Female to Male transexual and her friend joined us which gave me MAJOR wood-kill. I was closing my eyes and thinking of the hottest sex I'd ever had, every porno I had ever seen, every fantasy I'd ever imagined...and NOTHING. A couple guys noticed something was wrong and asked me a few times if everything was OK, and I just nodded and said, "yeah, the steam's just relaxing me is all." But I was getting more and more pissed off at myself, and maybe even a tinge of panic. I felt like the kid who has to watch all the other kids swimming but can't join in because he doesn't have permission. It was sincerely one of the most horrible experiences in my life. The only consolation was that Tammy had GREAT tits and I was really enjoying them rubbing up against me as she was very flirty--BUT STILL, NOTHING! To add insult to injury, she'd be making comments here and there about how nice certain people's dicks looked. I wanted to show her (and just show off in general) but it just was NOT happening. Anyway, this was the first time this has ever happened to me and I'm sincerely hoping it's the last. Really. Not fun. Not fun at all.

On a final note, the Italian guy I mentioned said he wanted my email, so I gave it to him without expecting anything. When I got home, a quick email from him was waiting:

Hey bud, this is A*** from ******'s birthday party. Was good to see you again. Hopefully this e-mail finds you at the appropriate contact address. Keep in touch!

Nice. Pleasant surprise. And the not so pleasant surprise I found out later is that while extremely hot, this guy is HIV positive. When it rains it pours.