Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Wound up tight, but can't keep it down

Ever since I was in my teens, I've always been "wound up tight" as they say. A lot of people are like that in that when stressed they tense up, especially in the nether regions. And in my case, my anus could crush wallnuts. I remember even back when I was just 16 I'd wake to a very persistent dull pain which felt like I'd just been violated with a broom handle. I'd often joke to myself that I was just fucked by a ghost, because that's how it felt (even though I'd never had sex of any kind in my life, I just assumed that's what it must be like). As the years went on and life became more stressful the pain and frequency of these episodes increased to the point where a few years ago I finally broke down to see the doctor about it. No one really knew what it was, just educated guesses; prostatitis, epiditomitis, or at worst colon cancer. It turned out to be none of the above (although the symptoms are the same). It was all of my own making, since I essentially live the majority of my life "clenched" down there as it were. Thus, when I sleep and my muscles attempt to relax, often they will go into painful spasm just to keep their "clenched" state, which wakes me to severe pains. But now that the problem has been identified, I believe I'm on a path to recovery as I haven't been awoken from the pain in about 3 weeks now since I was diagnosed. PLUS, I got a perscription of "Flomax", which helps to relax the bladder and urethra muscles allowing me to urinate less frequently and more. AND...as a side effect of me not being so wound up and my innards clenched/distorted, I can't keep my boner down. It's almost like I'm 18 again, which is bad since when things are good, I have a high libido as it is. It may just be my body getting used to its new condition and may just change back to "normal" soon. Regardless, it's interesting.

It's also difficult when I hook up, because right after I cum, I get really randy again and want seconds. Yesterday a guy I met online came over. He's a toned guy in his early 30's who is half-spanish/half-italian but has a very thick Spanish accent (almost unintelligible when he speaks in English OR Spanish). Right when we got our clothes off, I could tell he was normally a very hairy bastard, but thankfully he shaves most of his body. He immediately said, "Wow, this is great dude. Just like when I was in the navy." Uh-huh. Nice subtle "plug" there. But I will admit, this guy took it like a champ; VERY masculine, grunted a LOT while I was fucking him, told me to do it harder, faster, more etc, very generous with the "fuck me!'s" And when I came (I don't know if it's the flomax or just my "new" relaxed system, but I am experiencing some earth-shattering orgasms these days too!) I was almost immediately ready for a second round. But the former sailor-boy wasn't, so I was basically left with my hard dick. It will be interesting to see how long this lasts. Either way, as long as it means less physical pain in my life, I'm all for it.

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